My nephew Micah. I baby sat him for a few hours today :) He's such a sweetheart.
Just a Minute in May....
Looking... forward to the Mothers Day service at my church this Sunday. The Pastor's wife and their daughter will be doing a special Mothers Day/Women's message. Sure to be inspiring.
Planning... swaps and details for the snail mail group.
Thinking... about doing some work experience to help with my job searching.
Deciding... to stop constantly comparing myself to other people. It's pointless and it just brings me down.
Admiring... The beauty all around us. I've been captivated by the amount of stars that you can see in the country and the wonder of clouds.
Reminiscing... by listening to old music and remembering the memories associated with them. It brought me back to those times (good and sad).
Loving... Masterchef. I enjoy seeing what the contestants come up with. Plus it makes me adore food even more, especially the desserts.
Wanting... to take some creative classes to get me out of this slump I feel like I'm in.
I know that I'm going through major changes in my life right now and just trying to figure out what it is I'm doing with my life? There have been lots of tears, thinking and praying. I think I know what I want to do, I just have to do it. I need to stop being so critical of myself and comparing myself with other people. I don't know why I do it. And listening to the old music brought back certain memories. Both good and bad. I remember feeling happy but I also remember feeling a little worthless about myself. I think it's the old struggles and the occasional low self esteem I felt. I was good at hiding that part though and always looked happy.
I think this is one of the reasons why I was so big on journalling. I needed to let out my emotions some ways. I remember there were some days when I would lie on my bed and listen to sad music and just think (it's kind of emo really, never thought about it that way) but people thought I was this happy happy person and I know I was, but I had my days.
So, that post completely came out of nowhere and it's completely scattered. I don't usually get too personal on here but there are times when it just comes out :)